I feel alone again but it's just me. I put myself in this place a box a cage a prison all of my own. Only i have the key to unlock the cell no one but me. But still i feel alone scared left in the dark with no one. Confused, angry, annoyed with everything. Am i really here or is this all just a dream of my own making, am i real is anything real?
G.L.B. January 2, 1995
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
A la Madre de su toque
I began my morning to the voice of Margo Timmins singing Sweet Jane right at the same moment my now eight year old daughter, Sierra, crawled into bed with me. Savoring the few minutes we have to wrap our arms around eachother and fall back to sleep. "Sweet Jane, Sweet Jane Sweet, Sweet Jane. Anyone who's ever had a dream. Anyone who's played a part. Anyone who's ever been lonely. and anyone who's ever split apart." Snooze one last time.... a flip of a switch the kettle starts to tick. Cool water to wake my tired face.
The familiar routine begins as I insert the key and unlock the doors to Citrus & Sage.... coffee brewing away, shuffle on the ipod and lights on. The "other home" is open and ready for the regular customers (friends & family now) to join me. Jasmine green tea with my mustard yellow cup, that day's book and feet up.
Terry 6:55AM, Teri & Richard 7:08AM, Brian, Chris & Davy 7:12AM, Nate 7:15AM, Paul 7:30AM, Travis 7:45AM all right on schedule. A quick flash of hellos and in walks Hannah... ah sweet Hannah. And the day begins to it's fast pace and steady rush. The sounds of people conversing, doing business and enjoying the morning mixed with my Vida steaming milk and pulling hot perfect shots of espresso. If only I could capture the smell from the deep rich espresso. I converse with Jeff over books and the universe. Oh and a bit of welding. Beautiful pregnant Ru orders her hot chocolate with lots of whip cream. I sit with her fundraising committee for a brief minute... baby showers, joining the committee, a quick reference to sex toys and giggles fill the table. The connection with people, that's what I so enjoy. The daily life (vida) of this home away from home.
From the young age of 4 years old I was asked what I wanted to be when I grew up.... A mommy I said. I grew up and became a Mommy. In more ways than one. I am the mother of two amazing unique little girls, also at age thirteen I was put in the part of a mother for my mother and now I am the adopted mother of this sweet sweet simple coffee shop.. Citrus & Sage. I so dearly love it all. The ups and downs, the learning, the growing, the friends, the community, the giving and the trust. More than anything the trust I get to give to each and everyone that walks in our door. If you have no clue what I am talking about please come see for yourself.
The familiar routine begins as I insert the key and unlock the doors to Citrus & Sage.... coffee brewing away, shuffle on the ipod and lights on. The "other home" is open and ready for the regular customers (friends & family now) to join me. Jasmine green tea with my mustard yellow cup, that day's book and feet up.
Terry 6:55AM, Teri & Richard 7:08AM, Brian, Chris & Davy 7:12AM, Nate 7:15AM, Paul 7:30AM, Travis 7:45AM all right on schedule. A quick flash of hellos and in walks Hannah... ah sweet Hannah. And the day begins to it's fast pace and steady rush. The sounds of people conversing, doing business and enjoying the morning mixed with my Vida steaming milk and pulling hot perfect shots of espresso. If only I could capture the smell from the deep rich espresso. I converse with Jeff over books and the universe. Oh and a bit of welding. Beautiful pregnant Ru orders her hot chocolate with lots of whip cream. I sit with her fundraising committee for a brief minute... baby showers, joining the committee, a quick reference to sex toys and giggles fill the table. The connection with people, that's what I so enjoy. The daily life (vida) of this home away from home.
From the young age of 4 years old I was asked what I wanted to be when I grew up.... A mommy I said. I grew up and became a Mommy. In more ways than one. I am the mother of two amazing unique little girls, also at age thirteen I was put in the part of a mother for my mother and now I am the adopted mother of this sweet sweet simple coffee shop.. Citrus & Sage. I so dearly love it all. The ups and downs, the learning, the growing, the friends, the community, the giving and the trust. More than anything the trust I get to give to each and everyone that walks in our door. If you have no clue what I am talking about please come see for yourself.
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